“I survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me.”— Joshua Graham
we’ve been holding onto the old self, these days. the wolf girl. the weird little kid. the strange wildling that would run through forests, our knees all skinned.
we remembered the magic of our loose teeth, how we used to know how to talk to trees. we’re taking god out of the church and prying worship from the dirt. making our lives about using the finer things, about just-trying. the leisurely enjoyment of laziness, lawlessness, of leaving the dishes undone. of enjoying food without apology, of showing off our naked body, of kissing her. call it hedonism, sure.
always knew something else about ourselves. spent our whole lives hushed up; told we’re made wrong. that’s fine, these days. we used to know how to cast spells on the clouds. we have always been a little bit of lightning. the moss will teach us the soft hand - here’s how to belong.
relearning magic. a little beautiful necromancy: you gave me nothing but bones. i still made a family.
“You think you are possessing me – / But I’ve got my teeth in you.”— Angela Carter, from “Unicorn,” Unicorn: The Poetry of Angela Carter
Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living.
— Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close
my dying words better be “im going ghost"
I just want some thick ass man to take care of me and build me a house like they used to
“the pain I don’t say / out loud, builds a home / inside me.”— Olivia Gatwood, from Life of the Party
(via lifeinpoetry)
Anonymous asked: “You are the knife I turn inside myself; that is love. That, my dear, is love.” -Franz Kafka. I feel this one in my bones.
always
“She hadn’t realized how long it takes to become somebody else, or how lonely it can be living in a world not meant for you.”— Brit Bennett, The Vanishing Half
i don’t know who needs to hear this but you don’t deserve to be sad about someone who doesn’t care about you anymore. you don’t deserve to be the only one hurting and the only one left who still cares. you deserve so much more than waiting for someone who may or may not come back to you. you deserve to be happy, to heal, to leave the past behind you and move on. you are too full of life to spend yours waiting on someone who left you.
i hope you heal soon.
“He is not thinking about you, he never does. As much as that hurts, it’s as simple as that.”
— Why he won’t reply to you.
“I am tired of being told I am loved and cared about but never made to feel that way.”
— your actions and words never match